I saw two of my ex- sec sch teachers at jurong point...OMG...ARE THEY DATING?Ok. I dun think they noticed me and I really forgot their names, but wow....i think they are dating! OMG!! hahashah! Its funny, since the last time back in sec school, i think they were close if I'm not wrong and we always used to speculate whether they are together. HMM.... but i dunno if they are really dating, and its about four years ago...ok..i should stop being KPO. hehhee..! And I went to this fashion and looked around and I saw this really sweet purple satin dress...so cute!

And then mum dragged me to see doctor after i dragged for two days and Queen keep urging me to go (RAI...if you are reading this..see..i'm so good girl. I listen to you! hahaha!). So I just went after school and then got the medicine...and which means I cant go for blood donation tomorrow since I'm on medication. Hiyo.

I am soooo bored! And tomorrow is wednesday...a pretty long day. And a crappy thing is...i got lab next monday! I am so used to not having lab on mondays and Queen was laughing at me when I kept complaining about it during lunch. She was like saying :" Now you know how we feel when we go for lab on mondays?" I was like.... -.-

Hhahaha! Damn. I hate taking medicine.

I'm blogging in school!


SP open competition ended yesterday. I got eliminated after the first round. My opponent was pretty good and seemly because of what others said that she's a familiar in novice competitions..hmm. Ok. All I can say is, she's extremely good.

Then TKO? Ok. I guess im too nervous! hahah! But at least we all tried our best. LOL. And none of us won anything so we didn't stay for the prize presentation and went to island creamery to eat. I totally love mudpie! hahaha!

Ok. I know I cut long story to short. I'm practically lazy to blog longer.

Now, my mind's wandering. She has been asking me to quit for quite a long time now and now, I'm just confused. So muddle-head of me. I have been talking to a friend of mine about it and asking her what I should do...even she has no idea. I guess i'll have to see how?


Ok. I have to finish up my tutorials now.

I just finished the first day of SP open today.

Initially, I was nervous and I just keep telling myself to calm down. The B and C details people who were shooting with me, they are really nice! hahah! Well, it's easy to talk to them anyway :)) And ok, my scores isnt good.

Yea. my friend told me not to think about it cos' it is just exposure. But somehow, I got into TKO because of charlie and LS' individual scores..they did really good! And somehow, I am afraid of pulling them down tomorrow...and they have to cover my ass. But of cos, i must be optimistic!

Ok. And particarly because I feel a bit disappointed that someone doesn't even seem to care how it went today. From morning till I came back home, not a single word from the person of asking how's the outcome and didn't even give me a word of encouragment. It makes me feel like crying but I just tell myself to get this buried deep and just concentrate for tomorrow. I guess my mood affected my results...i wasn't shooting well as like in training...and i did tried to bock everything out but i just keep thinking about it and I am just lucky to manage to get into IKO. Im super surprised actually. A second chance? lol.

Ok. I'll STOP thinking about it and shoot well tml. :)) I won't give a damn about that person and just focus on my shooting.

And I finally ate at a sushi place for the first time today! hahahha! but it wasn't sakae sushi though :(( Ok. I forgot what is that place called, but the only thing  I like is the mango soda! The rest are just so-so. lol. I should try sakae sushi soon. Someone takes me there! heehee :))





Right. And oh...to my friends who reading this, thanks for your smses! hahahha! I feel so happy after reading the smses this morning :))

I am listening to Chingg's friend singing now. Chingg lended me her CD which her friend is a singer, and its really good! I had a verbal disagreement with my mum again just now and my mood was so low and I went to listen to her music. Its really soothing. :))

You should listen to her songs. Here's her website: http://www.shernkhor.com/ . Its christian songs by the way, but the songs are really beautiful. I feel so calm now, although I do feel a bit upset because of the quarrel... but I am gonna forget about it soon.

I have been talking to two of my friend today about many things that has been occupying my mind for quite some times and how those things sort of been weighing my mind. They are really great friends to listen to my ramblings. Thanks so much. Love you girls :))

Been shooting today and ok, its not very good when come to shooting 80 face. I cant hit a single X! Oh manz... and then I received an sms from someone which really make my mood level go all the way down. One moment high, another moment low. But what ever it is, I just packed up my stuffs and then left earlier.

And I am getting muddle head. I saw the events in my facebook profile and saw that its my brother's birthday this thursday, and for a moment I thought it really was! Then I have no idea what to get for a guy's birthday, so I sms a friend of mine until I suddenly realise that it's january...and his is july. Im SOOOOOO embarrassed! URGH!

Im supperrbb good mood today! HHAHAHA. First of all, my first and only lecture today is quite interesting and it really perk my mood up, and the next is, my school organising this valentine orders for flowers from 25th to 29th Jan, and I suddenly want to order the flower for a good friend of mine, and make a agreement with another of my friend...and wants to surprise XX. =)) Ohhhh...I so love sunflowers!

For those who interested, SBS will be setting up booth outside Canteen A from 27th Jan to 28th Jan from 10am to 7pm. Then another booth at SBS from 25th Jan to 29th Jan.

And ohhh yaaa.....just to answer some enquires, I don't think I have the time to make valentine cards as ready-made...so if you want to order valentine cards from me, I will only accept orders from 27th Jan to 7th Feb. I'm so sorry about it. School is really hectic for me. Hope you can understand. :)) And again, just visit my facebook gallery to view some examples.

Oh...and currently, I have 5 in stocks for valentine acetate cards. So email me via easterpkl@hotmail.com if you are interested.

15cm by 10cm cardInside the card, the message is "Just a note" and a space below to write your message.

SGD $6.00 (including envelope)
5 in stocks left 
Colours available: Blue, Pink
Other colours can be requested. 

Okayyy... I better do my tutorial now, due tomorrow. Ohh...Im soo tired right now!

Sometimes mothers can be funny or ironical. I have to get her to sign the indemnity form for the SP open archery event and when my sis told her what it was said in the form, she said she don't want to sign it.

My mum:"You always there bruises, here bruises. And one time you came back with a plaster on your forehead...and you ask me sign this. What if you get killed how? It will be like my fault that I sign it and nobody will care about whether you get injured or not."

Ok..the plaster thing incident is a long story. Just ask any archery mate of mine. I dun wanna repeat it...i sound stupid.

Ohh...by the way, she said it in a joking way.

Me: " Hiya...I won't shoot myself one lahh...faster sign lehh."

My mum: " If I sign, then it will means that I don't care whether you get injured anot."

Me: " Faster sign....."

My mum: " Then if you get injured, then we have to pay for the medical fees and everything.."

Me: " Can faster sign anot?"

My mum: " If you die or get injured, they will be dead."

Me: " Here is the pen....sign here." Me pointing to the line on the form.

And my mum just signed it. HAHAHH! I practically ignored what she said and just keep asking her to sign. LOL. Ok. I'm a bad daughter. =X


And next thing I wanna complained...is the inconsiderate people! I was on the way back home in train with my friends and then my friend got up to leave cos it reached her destination, and the space beside me is empty so I wanted to shift there to let my other friend sit when the lady beside the empty seat went to put her hand onto the seat that I want to shift to cos I think she wanted her daughter to sit. But because I don't like the way her daughter who is in her twenties looking at us since they boarded the train, and I don't like the way her mum trying to chop the seat using her hand, and her daughter gave me a very bad impression, I just went and sit down, ignoring the lady's hand, and sat on her hand before she quickly moved her hand away.

If you think this is rude, I think the lady and the daughter were even more rude and inconsiderate. If she didn't attempted to use her hand to chop the place, and if the daughter is polite and not look at us like some spoiled princess looking at some dirty peasants, I may considered letting her sit.

But tough luck when I also recognized her as someone who used to be from my poly, and she was kind of stuck up back then....well..not many girls like her..except the guys..since she's chio. Who cares? LOL.

Things are getting hectic now and I hardly have the time to make cards now. =( I have made new year resolution which includes that I should make at least 2 cards a week and I fail to make a single one in Jan. And I delayed blogging for quite a while. I was thinking whether should I quit blogging but I couldnt bring myself to delete it. I like blogging too much, and yet, I doesn't like to reveal loads of things... and I feel strange if I set it to private and only allow certain readers and I don't think I know who to invite anyway.

Ok. I'll just say it out. Things isn't going well at home. That's the reason why I have been so crappy and in a bad mood these few days. It always been like this. I have been complaining about this issue in my blog for dunno how many times and even I myself get sick and tired of whining in my blog. But nevermind...all the things happening at home...it really makes me want to run away from everything...to find a boat and sail away. Somewhere faraway, and alone. I really need to be alone.

Alright. I am gonna stop my whining and talk about something better.

SP open archery competiton coming up next week and I am not even prepared. LOL.

Ok. I need some motivation for me to stop procrastinating and start making some cards. I have few orders for this month and I havent get anything done =X HELP?! I need inspirations.! Oh mannn...

And I really need the money to buy cricut, digital camera...Canon 50D !! .... my wishlist is getting longer and yet I can only dream of them. And my friend asked me to come out with a wishlist! LOL.

I thought of it..and compiled my wishes into a list (I'm gonna put it at my sidebar..cos it is always constantly changing! ) :

But what I really want now is...

1) Digital camera

I seriously need a new digital camera for taking photos of my art stuffs. My current camera is getting old and I couldn't auto focus at all, and the resolution isn't that great as before . I really like Canon 50D's specification..hahah! But I think it might be a little heavy for me to bring it with me to outings. LOL.

2) Mini Oven

Ok. I know its weird to wish for an oven. I tried persuading my parents to buy one but they are not into baking, and I really want to learn baking! hahaha!

3) A bag

Something like this:

I'm back from camp! And I am sick now, in a terrible condition, throat burning, blocked nose and feeling light-headed. But nevertheless, camp was funnnn :)

Before day 1:
Met up with amanda and ching at night and we went to look for shorts, food and BEERS. LOL. I think I got influenced by amanda already! And then we meet up with Giant, (yea...he's really GIANT...hahah! Goodness, I think we should give the girls a nickname too, so that it wont be too revealing in my blog here. LOL.). Then we took bus to NTU and I went to bunk in with amanda, watching korean shows and doing crazy stuffs before lights out.

Day 1:

Went to meet up in chingg's room for breakfast! And we were actually quite late! We met up with the guys and zhangying and ended up taking a 8 seaters cab, to sentosa's siloso beach.

And we found out that we are the earliest, which is kind of irony, when we supposed to meet the people at harborfront at 9am but we left boon lay station in cab after 9am. Played bridge while waiting for the rest of the archery people to come. Ok. I really sucks at bridge, it was my first time playing, and zhangying and Chicken (chicken little actually...he looks really like chicken little!) tried to teach me, while I keep putting on my blur face. hahaha! But I finally managed to catch on after that. Then the rest arrived and we played some bonding games, like double wacko..thanks to Gavin who partnered with me..he's really fast and I din even get hit at all. And I cant believe that the group I am in always do forfeit. Am I that unlucky? LOL.

Then played the captain ball using orange..and I really did very badly in that..its so hard catching one small ball...I prefer big ball. Thanks very much. And ended up twisting my ankle and for two whole days, it had been aching and throbbing. Thanks to zhang ying's medicated spray, it got a little better on the 2nd day night.

And then wet game! It was actually "Don't forget the lyrics" game where we would get dumped and shoot by the opposing teams with water if we couldn't get the lyrics right. And I stopped playing after the first round when my thing got wet and practically disppeared to the toilet for a long time trying to "save" it and getting it try. Well..its a little cranky now, but not so worse. Thanks to chingg for leaving the game to accompany me the whole time. She was the best! She really went to look for me when I was gone the whole time. LOVE her. ! hahaha! By the time we finished drying my thing, it was time to take group photo...thats' fast.!



Then after the whole thing, we just headed for dinner and then chill at chingg's hall, watching movie and drinking and eating.


Day 2:

Mostly mental training, and then the sheshido talk, which I found it boring..haha. And then we tried the shooting of 30meters! Two of my arrows managed to hit the board, after 10 failed attempts. HAHHA!
And then night activities, and night walk. I dun have the pictures on that. And a friend got injured during the candle fight game, and she got 4 stitches! OUCH! But I am so glad she is better now ! =D

I dun have much to say for day 2. LOL. After the night walk, me and amanda went to chicken's hall to meet up with them to go to ah gong's hall for air con.

DAY 3:

Its biathlon. Oh man..and I really sucks at that. Pulled the whole group down! And not much to say about day 3. LOL. But had dinner with the clique after the camp :))

Okay. I am now in archery camp for three days two nights. I just finished with day one today. Right now, blogging in amanda's room, and looking thru' archery research topics for the presentation the third day. Ok. I am kind of lazy to blog my activities here, so I'll wiat for the photos to be uploaded and I'll post them if I bother to :)) Pictures speak a thousand words! hahaha!

It was kind of fun today, and then hanging out with the archery peeps in ching's hall. And watching halloween 2, which was kind of gory but boring..so we switched to caroline, and I ended up falling asleep, with my butt being numb until LS woke me up. LOL.


And I TWISTED my ankle. It is now throbbing like hell... I hope it gets better when I wake up in the morning.

And now, I better get some sleep. Having mental and archery training tml, and then night walk. Ahhh...shit...how am i going to prepare for the presentation?! I'm kind of lazy. ahhah!


Ok. I'll sign off! Ciao.

I am back with a fresh start of the new year, 2010 :) I know I havent been updating, have been busy with a couple of things. And I am back with a new card!

I was watching the hongkong drama "When Easterly Showers Fall on the Sunny West ", and there was this scene where Mu Xing was talking to his grandpa who was lying unconsciously on hospital bed (he's dying). And flashbacks came to my mind and I feel so down when I thought of my grandfather, lying on the hospital bed few weeks ago. That was when I last saw him alive and now, I really miss him so much. Things were never the same now.

Ok. I have been feeling rather down lately, having no mood to draw, craft and going out. So, I just feel apologetic to my friends who have been asking me to celebrate xmas with them and yet, I rejected it. I dun have any mood to celebrate xmas at all. I have been very restless, staying at home and all I can do is to eat and sleep without any energy to keep me occupied like I used to.

Well. I'll stop here. Just need to vent a little of my feelings now and then. I'll be better tomorrow :)

I feel so restless today. I feel so bored and yet I don't have the mood to go out and socialize. I dunno how some of my friends can actually go out and socialize and clubbing the whole day ... and nearly everyday. =/

And I just read Xiaxue's blog about her love story and I think they are really suited to be together. Hahah! Ok. I am a romantic at heart. I just like reading those true love stories, and feel happy for them. I was talking to my friend yesterday about relationships and how we were discussing on how to differentiate the differences between crush, like and love. So what she summarized is ranking first is infatuation, then crush, then like, and lastly love. And I was sort of arguing with her that crush and like are almost the same thing whole she insisted that they are not. Well. Maybe she's right.

Oh my. I feel so old. hahha! And it is likemy friends around me are either getting engaged or married...and there's two who are expecting...and they are my friends around my age....don't you think we age too fast? LOL. If my married friends see this post, they probably snarl at me for saying that they age. hahah! But nope..i was just saying literally. To be honest, I really don't understand how their love can last so long. Take my cousin for example. He met his girlfriend when they were in sec 2 and now they have been married for...(I cant remember..) I think 3 years? And they have a incredible smart son and...daughter? (I think is daughter..I wasnt very close to them.) And their son is really smart! He is only two years old and yet he knows his ABCs , and usually at his age, boys play toy trucks or power rangers figures...but guess what he plays? His daddy's iphone which is stuffed with dictionary, educational games...and my cousin's wife told me that he doesn't like to play toys..he will mostly play iphone or computer...not those senseless games..but those games that has maths and english. I was like..OMG...when he did it infront of me, spelling words perfectly. One day, he gonna get a PhD like his daddy. Smart little boy!

And I was telling my mum, " My children will be also smart. I'll enrolled them in many enrichment classes!" And she just looked at me and said:" Wait and see. " LOL.

Anyway, back to the topic. So how does their love can last soo long? I think my cousin's relationship is already more than 14 years. Pretty long right?

And I told my friend about it and she said that is really long especially when they were together since 14 years old. Most couples at that age broke up easily, you know, due to our immature thinking. And my brother is with his girlfriend since they were 13 years old and still ongoing. Not that I pretty much care...hmm. Let's say that his gf and I cannot see eye to eye...or maybe it is just me. I'm being biased. =S

And my parents. They are still so loving to each other after having four childrens, and me being in my 20s...I did ask my mum how they managed to keep it going for so long. She just said that if I meet the right one, it will be the same for me.

LOL. Ok. I know everyone will meet their right one someday. But the thought of getting into relationship gives me cold feet. Maybe I got what they call commitment phobia. Ok. I got get into relationship before, but somehow, it doesn't work out...and partly because of my fault I think when most of the time, I don't seem to be the one making effort to make the relationship work. It is hard to explain, but somehow, I did have feelings for the person, but I dunno why I don't feel happy in the relationship, and most of the time, I will have this feeling of being caged. And I ended up feeling very guilty because my ex boyfriend had done so much for me, and being so nice to me and I ended up being unhappy with him.

Ok. I AM weird. I doesn't like him to buy flowers (I'm not a flower kind of person...but I let it go once cos he bought sunflower..I couldn't resist sunflower..lol), I doesn't like him to shower me with gifts all the time (its very embarrassing), I doesn't like him to take me to some fancy restaurant (I feel very uncomfortable). I doesn't like to report to him what I am doing most of the time (he always sms almost every minute to ask where am I..blah blah blah..and I feel like he's my police officer instead.) and most of all, our personality clash. He likes clubbing and socializing (I really hate clubbing...dunno how people can go clubbing and enjoy themselves when the noise bomp bomp bomp so loudly and people drinking themselves drunk...) and I prefer to lie lazily on my bed at home and sleep. But one thing I like about him is he always give me surprises. haha! I love surprises. LOL.

Anyway, singlehood is so much better. Haha. It is much more easier that way, doing my own stuffs and not having to worry whether the other person is bored stiff doing with me. Or just simply calling my friends out if I'm bored anytime I want...and if I don't find anyone to go out with, I will just either go out myself or stay at home and laze around.

The advantages of singlehood:

1) Can save more $$$.
2) Can go anywhere as u wish, no need to report.
3) Can have more $$$ spend on yourself.
4) Have lots of freedom and more time for yourself & friends.
5) Have a peace of your mind cos the other half wont nag at u.
7) Less burden & liabilties (the only liability is yourself).
8) RED PACKETS!

hahah!Ok. I am being silly.... But of cos, got cons of singlehood lahh...which I dunno much. LOL. All I  heard is that you will sometimes feel lonely when you see couples everywhere. But somehow, I don't feel that way most of the time, when there's my laptop and friends around :) Although, I do sometimes wish someone is there whenever I am feeling really down. LOL.

And I have a girlfriend who has a wonderful fiance..(he's really crazily in love with her you know :) ) told me that she thought of the same thing as me last time before she met her fiance and that she would never have a boyfriend who loves her.

But somehow, her fiance managed to win her heart after so many obstacles and she told me: "One day, your guy will come and you must remember to invite me to your wedding!. " and she gave me a big cheeky grin.

My sister got the package from TP...you know, those newsletters from polytechnics  to "brainwash" the O level students. Yea. She just finished her O levels. And its kinda funny when she got the unopened package from TP and she was opening the envelope and casually flipping the newsletter when she asked me jokingly:"Esther, how come you are not in the newsletter?"

I LOL at that. Well, the reason she asked that because I was in the magazine cover a year back, and also in website (Its still there..haha!My friend went to google my name last month and saw it. LOL. ) . Ok. Its kinda weird to see my face plastered there together with the cartoon version of myself and I remember that time whenever I want to go TP website, my face was right in front of me and I feel really weird. LOL.

Ok. Back to the topic, when I just totally ignoring her cause I know she was just jesting, she suddenly said: " Hey...you really in the newsletter leh!" And I went to look and there I was, posing with a stupid geeky smile on my face, and all I think was "WHY ON EARTH THEY USE THIS PICTURE?!"

It was the photoshoot that I had to take back then, making me pose all sort of postures..and ya lah..I know I'm damn stiff....you will be shy being taken pictures by a photographer and a few staffs around looking at you while you are alone there smiling stupidly at the camera which was being snapped away. I dunno how those models can stand there infront of the whole camera crew and still pose confidently witha big sexy smile on their face while I look like a total nerd.

 HAHAHHA! Now I think back, I just want to laugh instead.

And now, my mum put another package from TP (WHY SO MANY?!) and she put on my sis's table and straightaway asked me in a laughing tone: "Why don't you check to see if you appear in the magazine again?"

Right now, I am in the middle of making christmas cards for a customer, with 40 empty cards waiting for me to trim and design. And me sitting here, sniffing and blowing my nose (I think I caught a cold), trying to keep myself awake after a long tiring day. And all I can think off is to sail off to an island to be alone and be free of all the problems and worries and sadness.

Now, come to think of it. What is the purpose in our life? We born here on earth, toddled around learning how to walk, stuffing our brains senseless with all the maths equations, english vocabulary and memorising the long and boring chinese idioms and phrases and then grow up to compete in the never ending bell curve in university and then proceed on to enter into a working force to earn money for our retirement and then we die in a cold and lonely coffin.

Is there a purpose? There is isnt enough time to enjoy the fun, and we spent most of our lives being stressed out in the rigid education system, fighting with the elite students and the foreign students and getting white hairs everywhere.

Sometimes, I am just wondering...why am I here on earth?