Merry X'mas :)

Hello! A great merry x'mas :))

A song I am sharing which is really popular: Snowman, walking in the air.

Lyrics:
We're walking in the air
We're floating in the moonlit sky
The people far below are sleeping as we fly

I'm holding very tight
I'm riding in the midnight blue
I'm finding I can fly so high above with you

Far across the world
The villages go by like dreams
The rivers and the hills
The forests and the streams

Children gaze open mouth
Taken by surprise
Nobody down below believes their eyes

We're surffing in the air
We're swimming in the frozen sky
We're drifting over icy
Mountain floating by

Suddenly swooping low on an ocean deep
Arousing of a mighty monster from its sleep

We're walking in the air
We're floating in the midnight sky
And everyone who sees us greets us as we fly

Missing him

I was watching the hongkong drama "When Easterly Showers Fall on the Sunny West ", and there was this scene where Mu Xing was talking to his grandpa who was lying unconsciously on hospital bed (he's dying). And flashbacks came to my mind and I feel so down when I thought of my grandfather, lying on the hospital bed few weeks ago. That was when I last saw him alive and now, I really miss him so much. Things were never the same now.

Ok. I have been feeling rather down lately, having no mood to draw, craft and going out. So, I just feel apologetic to my friends who have been asking me to celebrate xmas with them and yet, I rejected it. I dun have any mood to celebrate xmas at all. I have been very restless, staying at home and all I can do is to eat and sleep without any energy to keep me occupied like I used to.

Well. I'll stop here. Just need to vent a little of my feelings now and then. I'll be better tomorrow :)

I Believe - My Sassy Girl MV

I love this song a lot :))

Lyrics:

I believe Kudaen gyote opjiman
idaero ibyorun anigetyo
I believe na-e-ge orun girun
cho-gum molri / tora-ol ppunigetjyo
Modu jinagan ku gi-ok-sukeso
naega nalrul apuge hamyo nunmurun manduljyo

Namankum ulji anh-kirul kudae-manun
nunmul obshi nal pyonhage ttona-jugirul
Onjen-ga tashi-dura ol
kudae-ranun gyol algiye / nan mitko itkiye
Kidaril-keyo nan kudae-yo-ya-man hajyo

I believe naega apa-halkkabwa
kudaenun ulchido mothaet-ketjyo
I believe hururun nae runmuri
kudael dashi naega toll-yo-ju-getjyo
Jakku momchurun nae nunkil sokeso
kudae rosupduri tto-olra nunmurul manduljyo

Namankum ulji anh-kirul kudae-manun
nunmul obshi nal pyonhage ttona-jugirul
Onjen-ga tashi-dura ol
kudae-ranun gyol algiye / nan mitko itkiye
Kidaril-keyo nan kudae-yo-ya-man hajyo

Na kudae alki chon i sesangdo / irohke nunbusyon-nunji
Ku hanul araeso ijen / nunmulro ramgyocho-jiman
i jaril nan chi-kil-keyo

Kudaeran iyu-manuro naege-karun
kidarimjocha chungbunhi haengbokha-getjyo
Saranghan iyumanuro / tto haruga chinagago
onun gil ichodo / kidarilkeyo
Nan kudaeyoyaman hajyo
Nan kudaeyoyaman hajyo

New X-Man Ep.1 [Eng Sub] 5/7

I just found out another X-man variety show and I have to share this one. I love the song "i Believe" and kyung Min can sing 8 celebrity versions..so talented!

relationships vs single hood

I feel so restless today. I feel so bored and yet I don't have the mood to go out and socialize. I dunno how some of my friends can actually go out and socialize and clubbing the whole day ... and nearly everyday. =/

And I just read Xiaxue's blog about her love story and I think they are really suited to be together. Hahah! Ok. I am a romantic at heart. I just like reading those true love stories, and feel happy for them. I was talking to my friend yesterday about relationships and how we were discussing on how to differentiate the differences between crush, like and love. So what she summarized is ranking first is infatuation, then crush, then like, and lastly love. And I was sort of arguing with her that crush and like are almost the same thing whole she insisted that they are not. Well. Maybe she's right.

Oh my. I feel so old. hahha! And it is likemy friends around me are either getting engaged or married...and there's two who are expecting...and they are my friends around my age....don't you think we age too fast? LOL. If my married friends see this post, they probably snarl at me for saying that they age. hahah! But nope..i was just saying literally. To be honest, I really don't understand how their love can last so long. Take my cousin for example. He met his girlfriend when they were in sec 2 and now they have been married for...(I cant remember..) I think 3 years? And they have a incredible smart son and...daughter? (I think is daughter..I wasnt very close to them.) And their son is really smart! He is only two years old and yet he knows his ABCs , and usually at his age, boys play toy trucks or power rangers figures...but guess what he plays? His daddy's iphone which is stuffed with dictionary, educational games...and my cousin's wife told me that he doesn't like to play toys..he will mostly play iphone or computer...not those senseless games..but those games that has maths and english. I was like..OMG...when he did it infront of me, spelling words perfectly. One day, he gonna get a PhD like his daddy. Smart little boy!

And I was telling my mum, " My children will be also smart. I'll enrolled them in many enrichment classes!" And she just looked at me and said:" Wait and see. " LOL.

Anyway, back to the topic. So how does their love can last soo long? I think my cousin's relationship is already more than 14 years. Pretty long right?

And I told my friend about it and she said that is really long especially when they were together since 14 years old. Most couples at that age broke up easily, you know, due to our immature thinking. And my brother is with his girlfriend since they were 13 years old and still ongoing. Not that I pretty much care...hmm. Let's say that his gf and I cannot see eye to eye...or maybe it is just me. I'm being biased. =S

And my parents. They are still so loving to each other after having four childrens, and me being in my 20s...I did ask my mum how they managed to keep it going for so long. She just said that if I meet the right one, it will be the same for me.

LOL. Ok. I know everyone will meet their right one someday. But the thought of getting into relationship gives me cold feet. Maybe I got what they call commitment phobia. Ok. I got get into relationship before, but somehow, it doesn't work out...and partly because of my fault I think when most of the time, I don't seem to be the one making effort to make the relationship work. It is hard to explain, but somehow, I did have feelings for the person, but I dunno why I don't feel happy in the relationship, and most of the time, I will have this feeling of being caged. And I ended up feeling very guilty because my ex boyfriend had done so much for me, and being so nice to me and I ended up being unhappy with him.

Ok. I AM weird. I doesn't like him to buy flowers (I'm not a flower kind of person...but I let it go once cos he bought sunflower..I couldn't resist sunflower..lol), I doesn't like him to shower me with gifts all the time (its very embarrassing), I doesn't like him to take me to some fancy restaurant (I feel very uncomfortable). I doesn't like to report to him what I am doing most of the time (he always sms almost every minute to ask where am I..blah blah blah..and I feel like he's my police officer instead.) and most of all, our personality clash. He likes clubbing and socializing (I really hate clubbing...dunno how people can go clubbing and enjoy themselves when the noise bomp bomp bomp so loudly and people drinking themselves drunk...) and I prefer to lie lazily on my bed at home and sleep. But one thing I like about him is he always give me surprises. haha! I love surprises. LOL.

Anyway, singlehood is so much better. Haha. It is much more easier that way, doing my own stuffs and not having to worry whether the other person is bored stiff doing with me. Or just simply calling my friends out if I'm bored anytime I want...and if I don't find anyone to go out with, I will just either go out myself or stay at home and laze around.

The advantages of singlehood:

1) Can save more $$$.
2) Can go anywhere as u wish, no need to report.
3) Can have more $$$ spend on yourself.
4) Have lots of freedom and more time for yourself & friends.
5) Have a peace of your mind cos the other half wont nag at u.
7) Less burden & liabilties (the only liability is yourself).
8) RED PACKETS!

hahah!Ok. I am being silly.... But of cos, got cons of singlehood lahh...which I dunno much. LOL. All I  heard is that you will sometimes feel lonely when you see couples everywhere. But somehow, I don't feel that way most of the time, when there's my laptop and friends around :) Although, I do sometimes wish someone is there whenever I am feeling really down. LOL.

And I have a girlfriend who has a wonderful fiance..(he's really crazily in love with her you know :) ) told me that she thought of the same thing as me last time before she met her fiance and that she would never have a boyfriend who loves her.

But somehow, her fiance managed to win her heart after so many obstacles and she told me: "One day, your guy will come and you must remember to invite me to your wedding!. " and she gave me a big cheeky grin.

Hahah! Let's wait and see.

For now, I'll enjoy my singlehood. :))

MV SUPER JUNIOR - SORRY,SORRY

I really like super junior. And I don't normally like celebrities but they really can make me listen to their songs for the whole day and their humor side of them in korean variety shows.

You should try watching their videos...variety shows, etc. They can really make me watch the whole day and laughing my head off :)

This music video of theirs is really one of my most favourite :) Their dances are so synchronized!

Funny moments

My sister got the package from TP...you know, those newsletters from polytechnics  to "brainwash" the O level students. Yea. She just finished her O levels. And its kinda funny when she got the unopened package from TP and she was opening the envelope and casually flipping the newsletter when she asked me jokingly:"Esther, how come you are not in the newsletter?"

I LOL at that. Well, the reason she asked that because I was in the magazine cover a year back, and also in website (Its still there..haha!My friend went to google my name last month and saw it. LOL. ) . Ok. Its kinda weird to see my face plastered there together with the cartoon version of myself and I remember that time whenever I want to go TP website, my face was right in front of me and I feel really weird. LOL.

Ok. Back to the topic, when I just totally ignoring her cause I know she was just jesting, she suddenly said: " Hey...you really in the newsletter leh!" And I went to look and there I was, posing with a stupid geeky smile on my face, and all I think was "WHY ON EARTH THEY USE THIS PICTURE?!"

It was the photoshoot that I had to take back then, making me pose all sort of postures..and ya lah..I know I'm damn stiff....you will be shy being taken pictures by a photographer and a few staffs around looking at you while you are alone there smiling stupidly at the camera which was being snapped away. I dunno how those models can stand there infront of the whole camera crew and still pose confidently witha big sexy smile on their face while I look like a total nerd.

 HAHAHHA! Now I think back, I just want to laugh instead.

And now, my mum put another package from TP (WHY SO MANY?!) and she put on my sis's table and straightaway asked me in a laughing tone: "Why don't you check to see if you appear in the magazine again?"

I just rolled my eyes at her and continue youtubing.

BECME - sweet birthday wishes

Another video uploaded! And I made this especially for my sister, whose birthday happens to be tomorrow. But I gave it to her today since I wont be seeing her tomorrow due to my training and she will be off for her prom night dinner around the time when I finished training. Sad case.

Here's it is!

And the video:

BECME - Sweet Birthday Wishes

Enjoy!

what is the our purpose of living?

Right now, I am in the middle of making christmas cards for a customer, with 40 empty cards waiting for me to trim and design. And me sitting here, sniffing and blowing my nose (I think I caught a cold), trying to keep myself awake after a long tiring day. And all I can think off is to sail off to an island to be alone and be free of all the problems and worries and sadness.

Now, come to think of it. What is the purpose in our life? We born here on earth, toddled around learning how to walk, stuffing our brains senseless with all the maths equations, english vocabulary and memorising the long and boring chinese idioms and phrases and then grow up to compete in the never ending bell curve in university and then proceed on to enter into a working force to earn money for our retirement and then we die in a cold and lonely coffin.

Is there a purpose? There is isnt enough time to enjoy the fun, and we spent most of our lives being stressed out in the rigid education system, fighting with the elite students and the foreign students and getting white hairs everywhere.

Sometimes, I am just wondering...why am I here on earth?

Hmmm.. Why?

A question I always ask myself which I cannot answer.

Well..I guess I am now emo-ing.

I felt his presence

There is mixed feelings in me nowsday. I just lost my grandpa, and attending his wake made me sad. I miss him so much. And after putting his bones in the temple, I feel something, that he is right there with us.

It has been eight days since he passed away. In chinese custom, after seven days, the spirit will come back to visit his family and footprint on flour or handprint on rice can be seen if the spirit really visits. My mum told us this morning that she saw a handprint on our rice after she had a dream, and showed it to dad early in the morning but dad accidentally shifted the container and the handprint was gone. My grandma said that he may come back the second time.

And just few minutes ago, I suddenly got a feeling. Just a feeling...and I was in teh bathroom. The feeling just came and I know that I have to take a look at the rice. So when I came out of the toilet, I immediately went to the cupboard and opened it and took out the rice container...and I saw a handprint. Very clearly. I was so shocked and stunned that I shouted for my sister who was watching television. At first, she couldnt see it until I show her and she saw it. My grandpa really came back. He came back. I was thinking about him just now, and I just got the feeling after that. I think he was telling me that he will always be around. My mum, my dad came back and saw it. My uncle who came to fetch my cousin also went to take a look. My aunt who is overseas, we use webcam to show her and she saw it too.

All I can say is..thank you grandpa for letting me know that you are there.Thank you for taking care of us. I miss you, ah gong.

Now, I am very certain that even if our loved ones leave us physically, they will always still be around with us in spirits. I have seen with my own eyes, feel his presence after his death.

Take care ah gong. We will all miss you.

Video's up

I am back with a video this time, making a very simple card which takes only 20 minutes of your time :)

The Beauty of the season card:

Materials used are stated in the description in youtube of my video: LINK

I almost give up uploading it in youtube when I failed the attempt of uploading four times, each taking more than half an hour (not sure why...but they said it is in different format). But I put the same format I always done previously and they still can be uploaded! So i just restart my computer, republished my video and then upload again, this time not moving away from my screen and it succeeded after 2 hours. Phew.

So here's the video. Hope you enjoy it:)

Christmas treasure box

I decided to come out of my comfort zone and make a treasure box. And of course, it does take patience but it's well worth it :) Here's some snapshots of my own christmas treasure box:

It has four handmade drawers and I used brads as knot to open the drawers.

And I used liquid pearls as borders and lay out all these using my snow flake punch, a snowman sticker as well as my stamped and embossed sentiment. :) I promised myself to make 3 cards and this plus finished the drawing of Yuna and a cardmaking video yesterday. But due to some personal problems, I couldn't get them done and only manage this and a card. Things isnt going well for me now, but I am hoping it will get better in near future:)

I'll try to post up the video in my next entry.

Exams finally over

Finally my exams have ended! Just two days ago :)

Ok. I just finished a drawing two days ago. Finally. After much procrasination!

Pardon about the watermark.

It is on On 11" x 14" Carton Bristol

Pencils used: HB, 3B, 4B, 8B

Mechanical pencils: 3B, 2B

Next is two of of my christmas cards I made during my exam period...to destress:)

The silver thing around my card is actually using liquid pearl...where you drop a liquid and it will look like a pearl! I couldn't do a very perfect pearl but still, I love this card! My camera couldn't couldn't capture the glitters but I can assure you that the images (trees) and the snowflakes are all glittered and shiny using rainbow glitter emobossing powder. I have no idea how to capture the glittering blink blink in camera though.

And next is this one which I really love the most! Like I said, you couldn't see any glittering here so there's isnt any effect to show. The star snowflake and the surroundings are all glittered :) And the ribbon is metallic silver. The wordings are embossed with silver powder. haha! I really love glitters!

Ok. I'm off to make more. Goodness! I have so many cards to make!

Next coming up will be my video. Stay tuned :)

Ciaoz~

Making your own glue

Ever tried making glue?

I used to try my hand on book making and I required LOADS of glue, which I couldn't afford to go and buy one jar of white glue. So I decided to make glue instead, and I finally make one jar of it!

And it is pretty easy to make, if you did the ratio of flour to water correctly and heating it to the right temperature. And adding of sugar to make it more sticky...careful not to burn the sugar though.

So, things you need:

1. 1 and 1/2 cups white flour
2. 1/2 cup sugar (optional)
3. 1 cup cold water
4. 2 cups boiling water

Steps:

• First, you have to combine both flour and sugar. Sugar help to make the glue much more sticky. 
• Then, you will have to slowly add cold water and mix out any lumps.
• Put mixture in a saucepan or metal bowl over a medium heat.
• Add the boiling water, and stirring constantly, bring the mixture to a boil.
• Lower the heat and keep stirring until you can feel that the paste thickened.
• After that, simply pour into the jar, especially one that is air tight.
• If not in use, simply refrigerated it to prevent it from being spoilt.
• It can last you for at most 2 weeks ( I think) if you keep it refrigerated.
• If the paste hardens, soften by mixing in small amounts of warm water as needed.

So here's the photos I took after making the glue:

 I keep stirring until the whole paste thickened.

Pour it into a jar:

And I tried the paste I made and it really stick damn well.! So I just applied onto my signatures and now I just got to wait till it dried before making the book cover. For now, my signatures are been pressed by heavy books.

Ok. And maybe some of you may be asking what is bookmaking. It is actually to make books lah. Just some books where you see in bookshops, those hardcover books, like journals, story books etc.

Here's a few examples I saw from DA :

A Deep Purple Wave by ~the-tenebrus on deviantART

she makes really beautiful books!

Do visit her DA gallery.

Magician books by =colourful-blossom on deviantART

She makes really cute and fabulous jewelleries!

Do visit her gallery as well.

And I just so love her magician books.

So yeah...thats what I mean by book making. XD

Have fun making the glue!

 PS: You should know how much glue you want. You can always alter the measurement of the flour and water to your needs. Just simply go by the ratio of flour and water (approximately 1:2 )

Will be away for 2 weeks

I will be back to blogging right after my exams :)

My exams will end after 2nd december.

Plus...for those who have not visit my old blog before I moved to blogspot, I actually have a tutorial on making your own glue. I will be posting it here after my exams.
Its something similar to white glue and it sticks really well! I used it most of the time for my bookmaking and cardmaking. And you don't have to buy glue at all :))

Will update you guys soon!

Miley Cyrus - Party in the USA - ASL Song

I love to watch people doing ASL and I wish I can learn that but Singapore doesn't have one as far as I know.

Watch this! He's so expressive in ASL and he's awesome!

christmas cards

I keep forgetting to upload new christmas cards I have made for the past week! So here's two of them:

The first one:

I love the stamp image =) I just love bears. They are so cute!

The second card:

I know this is kinda simple but I like it! The scarf is actually an inspiration from Kristina's blog. She makes really beautiful cards and some are simple and yet classy :)

I cannot talk much here now as I have to start mugging for my biology and my biochemistry papers. My biochemistry is next monday and the biology paper is next wednesday and I havent even start a chapter on biology!

Alright, till next time. =)

New video coming up!

Econs paper down! BANG!

And I saw Melt today! HAHAHHA!

Anyway. Econs paper was difficult...I hope I did okay. I was trying to force myself to think clearly. The pill made me drowsy at that time (I got a lousy flu) and its really a bad time to get sick during econs exams!

And after econs paper, its like I finished all my exams...when there are three more waiting for me. HELP!

BANG BANG BANG.

I'm dead.

I went to dinner with my clique at canteen 2 after exams when I suddenly got an idea!

Tired of exams? Wanna quit?

Let's start international cruisine. hahahah! The reason why is because, my clique including me, got indian, malay, chinese, and indonesian...and so I cook chinese food, while queen cooks indian food, sri cooks malay food and Ma cooks indonesian food...and we will present international crusine and become famous and come back to NTU to set up a stall to show that school drop outs earn more $$$. MUHAHAAHAHH! Oh ya..and with additional of bubble tea shop. HHAHAH!

Brilliant idea right?

Ok. I'm lame. LOL.

don't you realize that people who don't study tends to earn more $$$ than those hardworking geeks?

And I got discovered by Stampin' when I can .

I happened to see my blog name there!

Do check it out! Its really cool and it has so many sketches for you to try it out. :) I have already book marked it and add it to my link :)

Oh ya...I will be posting up a video on making a quick christmas card after my exams. :)

My exams will end 2nd december. I know its late but I'm so sorry but I have no choice. Exams come first :) But I promise the card will be very easy to make and you can make it for your friends, relatives if you ever need a very last minute work! . :)

Oh, before i forgot...I actually made a christmas card video last year...so for those who have not seen it, you can go to my youtube channel (look for the link on the right side bar, where it is under "my youtube channel") and watch it. You can give it a go :)

For my next video...stay tuned!

Happy birthday grandpa!

ok! I'm back home. ! LOL. Went to help my sister choose her clothes for my uncle' upcoming wedding dinner this wednesday and I am still comtemplating whether I should go...or mug the night away. I realy wish to go,but thursday is my econs paper (the next day, obviously!)

Oh right....I HATE EXAMS. OKOK. I have been complaining nonstop ever since my mugging period started. So i'll skip this once for now and get to the next topic which is cardmaking! :))

My mum just called me like...around evening, telling me to make a card for grandpa cos its his lunar birthday tomorrow (which is today..its past midnight!) and I was studying my biochem. But because I love my grandpa so much, I just dump all my books aside, and took out my cutting mat and start scrapping, and wow...I managed to finish it in half and hour before dinner and then after that, my sister dragged me out to help her choose her clothes. HA!

Anyway, here's the card I made for my grandpa:

I really like the flower image. And I hope he likes it.! I dont have a flair for making masculine card and this is the one I came up with...I tried to make as masculine as possible. I added the flower because my grandpa loves plants and flowers...he has his own backyard garden and you should see the flowers he plants along the gate as well! :))

Ok. Time to sleep now. Im too tired.

And drat...Im getting a cold. A bad timing. :(

funny exam question

Happen to see this online somewhere and it cracks me up :))

Is Hell Exothermic Or Endothermic?

The following is an actual question given on a University of Washington chemistry mid term. The answer was so "profound" that the professor shared it with colleagues.

Bonus Question: Is Hell exothermic (gives off heat) or endothermic (absorbs heat)?

Most of the students wrote proofs of their beliefs using Boyle's Law, (gas cools off when it expands and heats up when it is compressed) or some variant. One student, however, wrote the following:

First, we need to know how the mass of Hell is changing in time. So We need to know the rate that souls are moving into Hell and the rate they are leaving. I think that we can safely assume that once a soul gets to Hell, it will not leave. Therefore, no souls are leaving. As for how many souls are entering Hell, lets look at the different religions that exist in the world today.
Some of these religions state that if you are not a member of their religion, you will go to Hell. Since there are more than one of these religions and since people do not belong to more than one religion, we can project that all souls go to Hell. With birth and death rates as they are, we can expect the number of souls in Hell to increase exponentially.

Now, we look at the rate of change of the volume in Hell because Boyle's Law states that in order for the temperature and pressure in Hell to stay the same, the volume of Hell has to expand as souls are added. This gives two possibilities: If Hell is expanding at a slower rate than the rate at which souls enter Hell, then the temperature and pressure in Hell will increase until all Hell breaks loose. Of course, if Hell is expanding at a rate faster than the increase of souls in Hell, then the temperature and pressure will drop until Hell freezes over.

So which is it? If we accept the postulate given to me by Ms. Teresa Banyan during my Freshman year, "...that it will be a cold day in Hell before I sleep with you", and take into account the fact that I still have not succeeded in having sexual relations with her, then, #2 cannot be true, and thus I am sure that Hell is exothermic and will not freeze.

The student received the only "A" given.